11th September 2014.

Spread loves, no hates.

I am tired with dramas and people and dramas.

diff people diff thinking.

I cant change someone's attitude. They neither.

I can only change myself. Until when I've to stay in this situation.

Well, I must change myself.

.

Maybe I am not too good for anyone, I try to be good and kind.

I try to be perfect in someone's eyes but still not enough.

I give my all but no one seems like they care.

But, maybe I am still not good enough.

.

Perhaps, it's true.

Put aside my ego, I wont lost anything.

New life. New me.

Old is gone. I've to let the old me go.

Build another character. A new character. Maybe I'll be better.

.

Now, everything is a mess. Family fell apart.

Heart broken. Being tortured.

Loneliness is a part of me.

But I am still happy.

One said, the happiest is the saddest one.

Yes. That's me.

.

I hate people see my tears.

So, it's better showing off my teeth and smile as wide as I can cus no one can ever imagine how miserable my life is now. I think this is better than telling them what is

wrong with my life lately.

No one could ever imagined or ever understand the real feeling is

unless you try to fit in my shoes.

.

Put on my red lipstick, Brush my hairs, Spray perfume and wear something fancy.

Live my life like nothing happened.

Ignore everything and move on.

written by : fifiemiera

shawl - online seller , statements versace necklace - qireina_style ,

black blouse - Zara , black pants - Armani Exchange , shoes - Charles and Keith

Throwback when i was on a short work trip to Johor Bharu last two weeks ago.

Actually that was my very first time pakai shawl yang crunch crunch gitu

or istilah lainnya, "shawl malas" cus we don't need to iron and save time!

I tak tahu pon pakai.search tutorial on youtube but satu pon takde. isad.

haha. So, i used my own creativity lilit-lilit je shawl tu and thordiaaa, that was the result and not bad actually.

:D :D :D :D 

Got that dark brown shawl from one of the vendor in The Strand Mall events.

Sangat murah. 10 MYR only. Before this selalu nampak online seller jual almost 30 MYR. wedehel men.

Ingat nak borong bebanyak but banyak warna yang menarik dah SOLD OUT.

So, brown ni je berjaya tambat hati dan perasaan. 

Love at first sight omputih kate.

Okay, and lagi satu my Versace necklace tu i bought from one my friends, an online seller too.

tak sangka boleh jumpa dia dekat The Strand Mall and she suggested me to buy that one.

First time we met pon dekat event di Rasta TTDI. So it was an unexpected catch up with an old friend.

she has a very good taste in fashion, i told ya.

Will buy a lot of accessories from her soon, she sells hot and trendy items okay.

I dont have a full picture of me so i just cropped half of it.

Selfie nama pon kan how come nak snap full picture.

Anyw, im not choosy in buying clothes or anything. tak kisah pon if tak branded

as long as im comfortable with the materials and cantik di mata I.

written by : fifiemiera

A whole-hearted advice for Mrs.

Yes. Perhaps. 

This phrase really helps me alot. But, sometimes I wonder, until when?

Allah uji kita kerana kita kuat nak hadapi ujian tu. 

:)

I love you, Mrs. 

You meant everything to me but sometimes I wonder do you think the same thing as I do?

Or you just need me when you're in trouble? That's not a problem.

It's lovely helping people. But, it's suck when you cursed me.

You ada masalah tak bermakna you boleh babitkan semua orang dengan masalah you.

You yang cari masalah tu, Mrs. 

Kembali kepada Allah. Dia saja yang boleh bantu you.

You said you tak tenang, mungkin you tak bersujud depan Dia dengan sepenuh hati.

Bersihkan jiwa you. Buang segala dengki dan busuk hati.

Mungkin dengan cara tu you akan dapat ketenangan.

Berhenti menyusahkan orang lain.

We all have our own life to live. 

Please have some respect and sympathy.

Please.

written by : fifiemiera

Fatigued

Isn't ironic? People tend to make promises they cant stick to. People tend to hurt each other's feeling. People are not perfect. But that doesn't mean you can do the same mistakes all over again.

I am tired and fucked up.

Enough is enough.

Let me live my life. Let me move on. Let me BREATHE!

I am not wishing if I could turn back time so I'll bla bla bla...

NO ! I wont wish that. It was wonderful to get to know you, to have a splendid moments with you,

but sometimes we have to learn how to let go off something that is

not necessary anymore.

Thank you for everything.

Sometimes, I wondered what I've done to you. Why did you've to hurt me?

I am not sorry. I am just wondering.

Please, let me go. It's not easy trying to stand up and smiling to the whole world.

I dont care if you wanna walk away, again. Because I already used to it.

I am. 

TQ, again.

written by : fifiemiera

Pick the right choice.

Well, if you dont know the meaning of 'muggle', yep youre such a nerd. How come you dont know what is muggle? Go watch Harry Porter lah. Haha. Muggle is human.

M A N U S I A

Have you ever faced any judgemental creeps in your life? Gile tak. Manusia ni dah sebati dengan sifat suka mengJUDGE. (i lupa judge in malay) LOL. Even I pon suka judge. What? Seronok apa judge orang, pakaian orang. Cmon you cant deny that. We all are humans. We are not perfect from doin mistakes. 

right?

So, I assume that as K A R M A. You talk shit about anyone else, they'll talk shit about you too. So, fair ~

But, the important part is how you 'selamatkan' diri dan otak dan emosi dari judgemental freaks tu?

Adakah u judge diaorang balik?

Adakah u lawan kekasaran dengan kekasaran?

Adakah bla bla bla berjuta kemungkinan?

OR

you just ignore the bullshits and move on with your life?

See. we got of lot of choices but why must we pick the wrong one?

In life, we must enjoy all the lil things because we dont know what we gonna lose in the future/

YOLO.

Even your friends pon boleh badmouthing you, your kepoh neighbour asyik dengan your results, your bla bla bla.. Told ya, manusia tak sempurna.

So, just deal with it or DIE. (:

written by : fifiemiera

First Post :D

It has been an ages for me to have a blog! I guess I do have one but maybe I was still a kid at that time, so I was really noob in blogging and impressing my thoughts in words and deactivated. Yay, finally, I spent about 3 days tried to customize my blog eventho I know my blog looks so noob and terrible. Ha~ ha~

Okay. Back to the main part why I made a blog. There's a lot in my mind lately and there's no one to share with. I do have friends and family but it is somehow it cant be shared with them. 

Im not saying that I will share my problems here because I dont want strangers or anyone read about my problems because it leads to nothing. You just read it but you cant do nothing about it. Pathetic, is it? That's my opinion when I usually saw some people tend to share their problems in social web. 

Okay? Okay. 

I still remember this one phrase from one of my guy friends, he said " Dont think about your problems, think about the solutions".  How to solve your problems. If you only spend the rest of your life thinking about your unfinished problems, it will brings you to no end. It'll get you more depressed. 

Or you can cry if it makes you feel better. (:

written by : fifiemiera